A Daily Perspective- Day 6 (January 6th, 2021)

When you look at transition from a daily perspective, it can be pretty uneventful. Other than the fact that I know I have these pills in my system, the changes are unfelt and unseen.

... But I suppose it's also foolish to think nothing changes daily. Every day I prepare in different ways. For example, as I work my shifts in man mode , I start to imagine what it will be like to work at a different job in girl mode, to someday no longer have to answer to a name that's never connected with me, to someday get to be mostly seen and accepted as female. I have to remember the uneventful, quiet start doesn't mean it will stay that way for long. Sooner, rather than later, this ride is going to get quite a bit more interesting. Boobs and curves and little girly nuances that will place me into a new category. I truly can't wait!

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