A One Sided Narrative- Day 165(June 14th, 2021)

The concept of pride month in general for those in the LGBTQ has always been one I viewed as mostly in rebellion to God when growing up. No surprise there, since that narrative is what has been sold from day one. Whenever churches would show clips of the parades, they would find the rebellious groups, the ones that are more vocal and more anti-establishment, the ones where we are told that this is not only sin but the darkest, most off putting form.

As I've come to understand more about this community, especially those who are trans like me, I have found there are many people that are very genuine in their motives and in their love for Christ. Yes, genuine lovers of Christ exist in this community. Of course these people are never given a voice by church bodies and Christian media sites. No. All you ever see are the people who are in it to burn established things to the ground, the militant vocal minority that want rights just to throw them in the face of those who oppose them. Christians are then fed this one sided view of a classification of people that are far more complicated than the comic book villain motives they would have you believe.

For most, pride is about reaching a place of acceptance within yourself, finally rising above the constant shame and displacement you've felt and proudly announcing, "I don't fit the mold of what many deem acceptable and that's okay. I still deserve love and happiness and quiet moments of contentment." This is the simple message of the quieter majority.

And the question I now find myself posing daily when talking to God or even trying to contemplate the full scope of His design is this: if everyone in the LGBTQ community are automatically damned, regardless of their story, why should I believe the cross covers others? I know for myself that my story doesn't match any detail from the one sided narrative I've been sold for most of my life. And as someone now walking this road, I experience my community from behind my four walls, sometimes wondering if my purpose is to ask these questions on paper now so eventually we can ask them together as a community.

I will never speak to full certainty in my walking down this road. I know I'm happier and lighter and more hopeful. And I still claim Jesus as my only hope and my Savior. I always will. I believe, but can't say with certainty, that a heart that always desires Christ will never lose Him, regardless of the road they walk in this life. 


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