A Long Day Today- Day 19 (January 19th, 2021)

It was a long day today. Too long at work as Nathan and not nearly enough time at home with my wife and daughters as the real me. At least I get to wear a cute flannel black and red dress to bed. And at least we were able to salvage the night with pizza and a couple episodes of scrubs.

Living home life as a woman is getting easier and easier. I immediately shed the man clothes and persona as soon as I come home. I'm starting to see what my day to day can be. Being dressed is no longer an event for me. It's becoming my reality.

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